Breaking

So many things happened in the past week. She told her off finally because she really needed to let that out. I was so proud of her for doing it and not throwing off a punch. I think that even though the others go around and tell others that they told her off..it doesn't matter because now she's got it off her shoulders and we all saw that she told them, not the opposite. Then this week has just been such a slacker. I haven't even started on my English homework. I'm tired and I just don't want to do anything. My chest is always heaving. The day before yesterday, I planned to talk to him, but I didn't get to. After school, I thought he left so I just went with Patty to the liquor store and came back. Then we ran into him with his group near the girls bathroom and I was holding my bag of cheetos/fries with red stained fingers, and I wave at him. So so so lame. And I was like "Oh are you busy after 6th tomorrow?" and he said no. I think if I had planned that all out, it would not have worked. I know I like to say that you got to do everything unexpectedly and un-planned, but I don't do it sometimes. I think it's better if it just happens. So yesterday morning, Tasi and I were near Redmond and he came out of class when the bell rang. And he passed us, and Tasi was like...why didn't you say hi to him? And I just said no, and THEN I hear a "hey anne" from the back and I turn. He stood right there and then asked why I asked about him being busy the day before yesterday. I said oh just to hang out...and then yeah. THEN Mrs. Alpert came and pointed to me and then him and I nodded. LOL man. The things that happen. But ugh it was just not a good day because I was so moody. Still am right now...and like it was just bad yesterday. I went from like happy to okay and angry and sad and all over again. I didn't even get to talk. Why the hell am I so awkward and shy? I don't know how to handle these things :/ it's been like 3 years....