Drifting

I've been trying so hard not to change, but it's not like others surrounding me don't. I've talked to my elementary friend Diane today...had a long long talk about friends and how people have changed and what problems we've had. I've come to realize that many of us have changed...over the days you might not notice, but when you look back a few years...it's very startling to see how innocent people can turn bad. Some people don't realize how much they've changed...but I do this...I observe and I see it, It's like amazing how much someone changes and how stupid they can get....doing things and believing in things that aren't even true. Sneaking out of their houses when before..they couldn't even speak back to their parents...Stealing when they couldn't even think of getting bad grades...Nearly failing classes when before..all we wanted to do was get into college and be a doctor. Doing the wildest things ever when before....the wildest thing was to hold your crush's hand. What has become of us? People are being depressed and shit and it's not even funny anymore...People are cutting and doing suicide, and getting faded/drunk. It's ridiculously dumb. And then there's the no lifers that bug the shit outta me...like Dylan...really? I unfollow you on Tumblr and you go on aim to tell me "Thanks for the unfollow"...will that make any much of a difference? No. I follow those that interest me and I unfollow those that don't..Idc if you're the riches in the world...you can be the richest and you can always still be immature/stupid. I have to save a friend here from cutting and somehow you think that I would care about you being sad if I unfollowed you or not from Tumblr? Really? You're the one being a jerk to me after the date and stuff just because I don't like you like you liked me.....just because I was being nice and you fell for it...jsut because you didn't understand when I told you already that it's not going to happen like that.

to be continued