What's wrong?

What's wrong with me? Is there something wrong you guys? Why are you making me feel like this again? Did I do something wrong for wanting to just talk to you guys again...why's it so hard? Do you hate me? God seriously, what is wrong with me? Why did I cry? Why did I have to think about you and go find you to talk to? Why did I have to see him? Why didn't I recognize him? Why don't I have the strength to change? Why am I so hideous? Why?