6th time, Same Situation, Similar Stance

I'm always stuck between a guy and my close friend liking him and then he likes someone else. Fuck it. When is it my turn to be happy? When is it my turn to have no drama and just fall in love at the right time? To just be happy and have it be natural instead of forced. What's God trying to tell me...with 6 times of something repeated so similar. It's messing with my brain and makes me tired...esp. in a time like this, is really bad. Ugh always going to be the girl next door and the one that he doesn't notice like in the music video "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift. -sigh-